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Location: Bangalore, Karnataka, India

I was born and brought up on this earth. so i am damn earthly as per my stars and also by my physical appearance. some say i also suffer from short term amenesia. this condition occurs when your brain is slowly drifting into a fossiled state. Thast another advantage of being an earthling.

Sunday, April 23, 2006

It Has Started Again

It has started again. I have started to see things. Things which are not there anymore. I wake up not knowing where I am. Everythin that happened before I went to sleep is all a dream? Was i dreaming everything. The clock on my table reads 7am. I have to talk to her in 30 minutes. But all i can hear is static.
Was there a radio switched on somewhere. I look around me. It is a whole new world waiting to be explored by some naive young boy waiting to be forced into concentual slavery.
The last memory I have is of the smell of bleaching powder. This memory, triggers another on in which i tasted it. Where was i going to go anyway. My sleep is all i have and i loose it in my nightmares. I dont relise that Im talking out aloud to myself. When was the last time i did that. I remember, those were the days when it used to rain. You were all wet. You were not crying.
Time stopped for me. And before I knew it I was walking down the road alone.
The only moments I feel free is when I am with her. And now the only thing I feel is humiliation and lonliness.
I am loosing track of time again. I am loosing my mind.

Sunday, February 06, 2005

Rolling Stones Decided to Gather No Moss

It all started with a phone call to TCS office on January 31, 2005 a fine and comfortable warm Monday morning . The Human Resourse handling the employment of "the bums" told me i could pick my letter in the evening at 4.30pm. After getting the letter I decided I was not going to read it until February 1st so that I could enjoy one more evening of the bums life to which I had already attached an emotion of immense boredom.
But as always some frantic soul not quite in peace with themselves or with nature around them had to read the letter and ask only me a doubt with regard to some statement specified in it. I try to avoid ripping open my envelope with as much tact as possible. But a lady who is persistent enough can make any man submit to her whims and fancies, and this was exactly what happened that cloudy evening of January 31st.
So with a heavy heart I opened the envelope but in the process made a new acquantaince in the process. Her name is Nupur Jaiswal and she joins me in Hyderabad on 17th February, 2005 to formally bring an end to our current state of brain numbness.
Then later that night a girl with a grave voice calls me up at 10.30 and gives me the fright of my life by saying "Hi I'm Reema, I am from TCS". A stranger declaring that she is from TCS so late in the night made me assume that she was some HR personel from TCS calling me up to tell that my joining date on Feb 17th going to be postponed to some later date. Luckily after a long pause she said in words "Im a fresher like you". She wanted to know details about buses and other miscellaneous facts to which I had no answer at that moment since I was waiting for February 1st.
A few hours later after the phone call, I woke up to the first day of Febraury. Spent the whole morning talking to Nish. Then after that chalked out a plan of action for the next day.
So as per plans went to Ranbaxy for medical test on Feb 2nd. We had urine sample, blood sample, ECG, Xray, Eye doctor, Physician (the physician was cool, she smiled a lot) and one more test whose name I dont remember. That evening I get a call telling that there is somehting wrong with my ECG. I was asked to go for an ECHO cardiogram test the next day.
As it turned out it was some scam by the Ranbaxy people. But sure wasted my time. Then the search for my birth certificate commenced. I dont have one so had to apply for one. Will be getting it by 14th February.
Got nish online in the morning for an hour.Savio came home today. We spent almost an hour and a half togther laughing most of the time. Then later at night nish came online again. We spoke of nightmares in the moonlight.
Dreams are weird concepts. They either make a man to achieve great things or else breaks him up. But inspite of the balance having the capabilty to tip to any side we dont want to stop dreaming.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

The Beauty of Life

My fish laid eggs and from it came a bunch of nice small fishes. Happy Birthday Fishes.
I was thinking of names for the initial four fishes. but now i have 14 of them including the small fishes.
The mama fish was kind of fat these few days.i assumed it must be some sickness. But actually it was pregnant all this while. Wonder who the father is? Doesnt he have the right to know.
Never felt like this before.

Friday, January 21, 2005

Live On

I was thinking of writing a really long entry here about religious tolerance and a little bit of sensibilities in our own lives when it comes to religious sensitivities of various communities. But I decided against it.
I will only say that God wants us to be like children innocent and pure. These certain characteristics of a child we loose as we grow up and become monsters killing each other like immature brats.
I found this journal entry on the web.
Here the father is telling about his daughters’ life from the time of her birth until now. Read it and try to remember the time when we had our own Lemon Trees and Graveyards. (Click to be directed to page).

Thursday, January 20, 2005

Of fishes and slippers

On monday one of my fish died.
Today i realised i had invented a new kind of slippers called "Notary Chappals". After a few minutes i realised i had heard wrong, it was actually "Not Reachable". It is really funny if you understood the joke.

Monday, January 17, 2005

I Just Called

I just called up nish an hour back. It was nice talking to her. Nish's internet is down.Something to do with a mysterious firewall disallowing her from getting online. It has been 4 days since she has come online. Wonder when she will be riding technology's superhighway.
Got my new pair of glasses too. Every new pair makes me look more and more nerdy.God save me before i look like Woody Allen.

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Basics of Life


Today at the prayer meeting the preacher gave us a very strong and powerful message.

For a happy life we need to get back to the Basics of Life which is

1) Have a pure heart
2) Our love should be blind
3) Have faith in god
4) Our hope must endure at all times.

Meditating over it tonight.